Monster that I am


Nightmares terrorize my dreams, living feels no safe
grey haze empty of color
marked for life, marked for death
a life of pointless strife
feelings storming in my veins
brainstorm of my life
thoughts unknown eating me from inside out
flickering ligth and love keeps you alive
better saved for better deserved
the monster that I am
eating it all
feelings that I feed on
life that I wished my veins had
meaning to strife after
purpose to kill for
the monster that I am
feeds on your selfesteem
digging ever deeper
would kill for brighter thoughts
would kill for a life worth living for
better served for better deserved
be done, be gone leave me alone I’m fallen
to far down, to far gone, to lost to know the way
patronize, kill, love, hate, fight and survive for another day
for another life worth living for
life without madness, nightmares, sadness and self-pity

~ av Juha den 11 december 2009.

Ett svar to “Monster that I am”

  1. Grymt bra skrivet Juha! Som vanligt :) Jag har inte uppdaterat min blog på 100 år. Har inte haft motivation till att skriva nånting, inte ens dikter på hur länge som helst :( Får se om det blir ändring på det snart :)

    Hoppas att det blir ljusare för dej!
    (Du är inget monster!)

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